i could literally just ride the jungle cruise right now for hours and hours and be totally content
#postcpdepression
Who is that girl I see?
It is not Sean Connery.
When will my reflection show
who I am inside?
So I’ve just been accepted into the Disney College Program. I’m not sure what this means for me yet, other than the fact I’ll be a Merchandise Cast Member at Disney World for Fall 2011.
Now, I’ve never actually been to Disney World so the idea of living and working there is really strange to me….
This is like one of my favorite things in the whole world. I feel like I’m from the future. Everything’s gonna be so amazing Past Zach! Things are gonna get so much better for you. Aw man, I love reading people’s posts when they get accepted for the CP, especially when I know them and I know how things are gonna turn out. It’s like a really exciting trailer for a really good movie.
I should probably go to bed.
The fact that I almost didn’t do the DCP is the biggest personal mindfuck I’ve ever encountered. I really cannot even fathom my life right now without the people I’ve met since February in it.
one time there was a back to back double feature of mean girls and the princess diaries on abc family so i called in sick to my job at disney world.
Guess what bitches.
I’m going back to Diz-natch in seventeen days.
Buying my ticket tomorrow.
Staying with my boys.
And taking all their maingates, thanks to Zach’s new full time job on the Great Movie Ride.
is that so much to ask?
also I will be needing a laptop and a strong internet connection.
When I was depressed in high school, I used to listen to this on repeat and lay in bed and cry. I knew that somewhere, there must be people who would love me for who I was, and it was so frustrating to just sit and wait for it to happen.
It makes perfect sense that that place was Disney. I’m so glad that I got the chance to see the world and realize that no matter where you go, you can always find someone who loves you despite how weird you are, how little you think of yourself, or how judgmental other people look at you some times. Those are the people who are amazing, and those are the reason you are alive.
So, if you haven’t met them yet, don’t beat yourself up. It’s not anything you’ve done. The waiting is the hardest part. But when you get there, you’ll understand that the world isn’t really a terrible place, and not everyone hates you. Don’t hurt yourself. Don’t kill yourself. You can cry if you want, but don’t take it out on you. Your life isn’t worthless. It just hasn’t even begun.
Life is so beautiful.
